This week has been something. I started this week after last week of working 8-9or 10 depending on the day. This week has been the same. I am walking around like a zombie.
I am balancing job: stressing about all I need to get done at work, knowing I can't because work right now is a going to a conference, Greg: not seeing Greg because he is insanely busy with school and I am insanely busy with work, yet still desiring to have a real conversation that lasts more than a minute, my grandfather: who has been in the hospital, me thinking he was going to die, knowing he was going to be having surgery in his 80's, and imagining him in an operating room like the ones on Grey's Anatomy, family: wanting to be there for my family, but being far away, needing the support of my family yet being the sounding board/dump pile
And of course there is always the sleep factor, or lack of it. I am trying to sleep each night but waking up a million times in worry and fear hearing satan whisper in my ear.
The only comfort I have had is just relying on my Heavenly Father and singing songs to Him in my heart. Every time I have a moment of fear I refocus on God. Worry does me no good. It just makes me crazy. I don't have time to be crazy. So I sing in my heart. This week I have sung over and over again a song from church on Sunday "I believe You're my healer, I believe You're more than enough for me, Jesus You're all I need"
Do you know who Jesus is? Do you believe He is more than enough? Do you believe He is all you need? Well whether you know Him or not, whether you believe Him to be more than enough or not, He is. He is, because He is God.
I leave you with a little humor I found on my Starbucks cup a week or so ago. It was very fitting then, and more than fitting now. This is what I want to do more than anything else right now:
Sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now, friend. I will say a prayer for you this morning!
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