My head spun with lies spurring on the disappointment. Why
does this bother me so much? Why am I seeking their affirmation? The lies grew: If they don't
love you, this ministry will fail, you will fail.
God is trying to get my attention; there have been too many
“coincidences” lately. To many times the enemy has whispered what a failure I
am because so-in-so was upset with me or so-in-so was avoiding me. The Lord is
telling me to dig deeper and deal with the heart issue.
It’s not enough for me to confess I am a people pleaser, I
must dig deeper. I cannot simply acknowledge there is a problem and move on as
if it does not exist. I must get to the larger issue governing my heart.
I must get to the root and dig it out.
I am reminded of my mother who taught me to dig up
dandelions. “You have to make sure you get the root,” she would say. “If you
don’t get the root, the dandelion will just come back.”
My people pleasing heart is a lot like a dandelion. I want
to just pluck off the top part thinking it will solve the issue. And for a
while it works. On the outside everything seems to be fine, the dandelion seems
to be gone. Yet the weed grows back and the root is even stronger than before.
Have you ever seen a dandelion root? They are long and root
deep. My mom had a special tool that was long and forked at the end. You stuck
it down in the ground and pushed back and forth. The ground would loosen, the
top soil would pop as it detached from the root. Then the entire dandelion
(flower, leaves, and stem) would come right out of the ground.
It’s time that I dig deep, loosen the soil of my heart, and
figure out where that root goes in my heart. I’ve got to dig up that deeply
rooted dandelion that has sprouted in my heart.
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